This morning I got the news: my father is gone and my brothers and sisters did everything for the funeral. I was so so sad, and angry with myself. Because I did nothing. I didn't go back home for almost 3 years. For what???? For this stupid job and Green Card? The news is a hit to me. I am thinking about going back to work in china in the future. My family and I sacrified too much for my job and life in usa. My mind is a total mess. What a life it is here!! No parents, no sisters, no relatives.