I totally understand you. It is really hard. No matter how I said before, it would be much harder if I were you. Take care. There are a lot of man without a sense of mortality. DO not be fooled by them. But still keep your hope high, you can find some decent man to live with. Even that man did not show up, you still have a lovely family. And most improtantly you have a wonderful baby. Life is hard, but keep smiling.