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为什么你那时候不想有intercourse呢
xinchina 发表于 2020-12-24 20:12
那时候的我持有的生活原则,取的观点是:
intercourse 是为了生育而设计的功能,婚姻是为了生育管养孩子要有家庭经济保障而设定的。这两样人生「使命」我已经给前夫成全了。
再没有理由有第二段婚姻了,也再没有理由有 intercourse 了。
如果再有intercourse,就要等我老公(我老公给我的是处男的阴茎),我先生和有跟他 intercourse 过的女人都死了,如果到那时我跟我先生还没死,我先生才可以跟我有intercourse。
继而,我又想到,到那时,我跟我先生已经老了,我的外在美丽已经不一样了。想起 「铁达尼号」电影中的女主角的情况,不防让我先生趁我还没有衰老到那个年纪的日子之前,多给他看我,多给他摸我,好好的把这五官感受牢记在他的脑袋裏。老时 intercourse 我的时候,可以从记忆中拿出我现在的样子来幻想。
我知道我这么思维很不一样,but I only keep it to myself.
这规矩,他只守了一年。我问他为何要破我的底线?
以下是他在他的一则 journal 中这样回覆我:
Title: Tide
Sarah asked me today to blog about why I decided to "cross the bottom line." Short answer: "kitten, you are mine."
I met my kitten almost a year ago. Sometimes it feels like just yesterday. Seeing her for the first time. Hearing her speak for the first time. Her grace. Her elegance. It is overwhelming.
When I am with my kitten, it feels like we have been together a lifetime. We sit without speaking. Just being in each others presence is enough. The warm comfort of her fills me in every way. I know in my heart she feels the same. We are bound. We are twins. We are perfectly matched. I am dominant. She is submissive. I am drawn to her. She is my bright flame that I cannot resist. Between us there is love, there is passion. There is life!
In our time together we have become bound to one another. Bound in ways that can never truly be undone. It started with attraction and conversation. There were promises then dominance and submission. But our ties are not static. They continue to grow. Grow stronger, grow deeper, touching everything we are. kitten submits to me. I dominate her. I need to dominate her. I dominate, she submits. Through her submission she proves her love to me. Her trust in me. Her commitment to me. Through my caring dominance I show my love for her. My trust in her. My commitment to her, forever.
I am constantly exploring new ways for her to serve me. New ways for her to submit to me. I enjoy the little everyday things like determining what she can wear, what she cannot wear and when. Commanding her to make me tea or clean my cups at the office. I wish we could be more open with our relationship so I could enjoy more of these. I would have her run errands for me. Sit or kneel by me while I work. Be available to me all the time, not just when we are alone.
When we are alone in private I love to dominate her physically. I want to explore the boundaries of our relationship. I enjoy teaching her new sexual activities. In the beginning she knew almost nothing about sex. I enjoy teaching her. I love how eagerly she learns. I love how quickly she masters her lessons. From kneeling before me, to what underwear I love, to deep throating and anal. She is amazing. I have so many things I want to teach and do and experience with my kitten.
Through all of this we are bound. But I realized we are more than that. She is my responsibility now. We are bound forever. I will care for her and look after her. I will help her learn and grow. I will be with her always. She is my wife. And always will be. She is mine. So I take what is mine. No reservations, no boundaries, no regrets. We have a lifetime.
~Sir